Personal Update - In A Quiet Place

When you have committed to being on a journey of self-awareness you become aware of changes and shifts as they are actually taking place. 

I'm currently in a hyper-reflective space. If you follow my posts, you might remember I was going through a rough patch and wondering if it was all peri-menopause related. I was actually diagnosed as having PTSD and have been trying to combine physical, emotional, and mental healing methods. 

I've been following Ullenka Kash and incorporating this eating style back into my life. I've always weaved in and out of a macro, vegitarian-ish way of eating and have really got away from it. I'm now not only just preparing plant heavy meals for myself, but my the whole family. 

Exercise, of course is an on going theme. I know the power of exercise in healing the body in a plethora of ways and need to get in action. I have the habit of wanting to go hard or nothing, which often translates to nothing! I'm now focusing on basic movements that I can sustain more easily on a daily basis. 

Increasing quantity and variety of plants in my cooking. Here: a bit of white fish with tomatoes, shallots and fennel.

Spiritually, I'm really trying to improve my meditation. Not mind empty meditation but deep contemplation on my connection to my Creator. 

Emotionally, I had pressed the pause button on friendships. It was drastic but 100% needed and I’m glad I did that for myself. I actually got a new phone, changed my phone number, and told no one. It left me to become truly aware of who was really in my life. I only put numbers back in of people I truly still had connections with. It also left me to see who wanted to really get in touch with me because finding my number would take a little digging. It's been about two years and I’m feeling like reaching out to people I miss is truly authentic. And I feel at ease and not forced. I am nurturing relationships that have understanding and undercurrents of positivity with people who appreciate life and strive for growth. 

“Stress, loss, and past traumas can effect you even when you feel like you are functioning well. It’s important to be in communication with your doctors/therapist to stay on top of what is really going on.”

I'm respecting the signals that I need to adjust for my mental health. I'm checking vitamin levels, hormones, and health issues that can have an effect on my mental health. 

So through all this I've come to a place where I feel like some things are shifting. I'm feeling quiet which, as a person with constant head chatter, is huge! 

Life is about constant change and letting go of control. It's amazing how many things you can tell yourself effect you, only to realize they aren't in your control. And it's interesting to discover that what is actually effecting you is what you told yourself isn't an issue. I'm grateful to be able to be able shift and realize it's not all some great strength I personally have, but the connections I have what's greater than me.